Anything I say can and will be held against me.
Oh well, so be it and amen... That's the way life is.
I'm going to write anyway.
I suppose I'm about over the shock of everything and ready to move on. By move on I mean just keep going.
I've had to cut myself off completely from one of the people that I love the most in the world. I had to because every little thing I say is taken and stretched out of context. My privacy of conversation was compromised and infested. It doesn't matter that I'm being extremely careful what I say. I am not willing to share it with a third party. It just doesn't matter...
It think Kay might be looking for things to hang me with. Sorry, that's just what I think. She's trying to make things up... Medical neglect... please! She has provoked me, she wants me to email her. I'm not going to.
Being silent will probably bite me in the ass too.
Hell, I don't know what to do!!!
I'm feeling grief. I've made mistakes. I had to talk to my ex, which ended up being a screaming match that I lost this time... my mistake...
I was going to spend my time off apartment hunting...
With such a world changing thing going on (in my world, my little world), it's hard to think about that.
I had a meltdown. The sun never came up. I had another meltdown...
Today has been better. I still don't know what to do. I am not really strong enough to deal with this right now. I am gaining, but I am not there yet.
January was really a hard month. Wally and I never expected to really be in the position that we were.
Right now I'm just recovering and licking my wounds.